so good...so good

Do you see who i have been blessed with for the past month? Marcus Allen.

Marcus. Man he has thrown me off my future life plan and i LOVE it. I can't even begin to put in words how much he has blessed me, encouraged me, challenged me, and pointed to Christ. Never have i seen such a man of God whom everyone approves of, who is so different from me yet brings out my best. I have been privileged to work in ministry alongside him and love watching him serve others. His smile, oh that smile, is so contagious and i just can't seem to get enough of it. Within this month i have already learned so much and im blown away by how much God has used him in my life. I am such a better person and i strive to grow in my walk with God. Thank you-yea those words...."thank you" just doesn't do justice for me. Maybe i am picky when it comes to conveying how much people mean to me and the impact they have on my life. Thanks to him, i have become more lighthearted, i have become more spontaneous (well kind of...like i can jaywalk now). Thanks to him, i am starting to understand the music world (well kind of...i know now 3 different bands) Thanks to him, i get to figure out how to be a girlfriend...you know the movies just fail at relationships...so much for learning wisdom from media. Thanks to him, my bedtime is now college worthy (no more 9pm-ers, still working on sleeping in past 8am) Marcus is genuine. He loves Jesus. He surprises me everyday with his thoughtfulness. He writes letters that are so selfless and giving and humble...yea maybe i cry when i read them. We work well together and i love that we are both figuring this whole dating thing out together.

"I am so thankful i stayed in fresno this year- boy was i in for a surprise...thank you God-like seriously." (that was a quick chat to God...without Him...im pretty much nothing) I have to stop and remember that God blessed me with such a unexpected gift that i just don't deserve.

I love driving in the car, listening to music, looking at the stars, laughing, going to dates, watching a gentleman in action, enjoying getting to know him (like his quirks :) ) I loved when he gave his shirt to the homeless. I loved when we met at the grind for weeks. I loved that he will watch any movie with me. I loved that he brought me Teazer every day that i was sick. I love that he hangs out with my family. I love that he is patient and down to earth.

His birthday is in 7 days. I just hope that he know how much he means to like everyone he meets. He is such a joyful follower of Christ. (Marcus- not sure when you are going to read this, but happy 7 days till your birthday. You made it on my blog because i get to boast about you being an amazing boyfriend. Is that bad...boasting?....i guess im just super lucky to have you.)


This was not a long blog post at all, which i would have liked. Maybe because it is 2am. Maybe because i will never fully find the words to write down whats going on in my heart and mind about Marcus. Whatever the case may be- all i know is that im overwhelmed by God's visual proof (marcus) that He is good, is FOR me, and is an amazing Creator to have made an incredible man.

I can't wait to grow closer to him and of course to God as i continue in this relationship.