this weekend...

wow...to describe this weekend...its all in my head but i am having trouble putting down words to explain all that i did and how blessed i truly feel. the moment that i was like "Ok God, ill give you my time, treasure, and talents." He blessed me more than i could have imagined....its no secret that Christ will bless those who pursue Him...why did i take so long though? Oh cause im just that stubborn. I will have to journal about everything tomorrow. Ahh. Im just very much in a happy place.

thanks...

tonight was so good. like i dont have words to express it. for years now, i waited for a night like this. a night where i could be me and hang out with amazing people. i love every minute. bonfire+a ton of laughter= perfect night. Thank you Jesus.

it a happy place...

got to spend some me and jesus time today at the Grind. One of my top things to do in fresno. I LOVE grabbing my white mocha, grabbing a seat outside, turning on some happy music (not buble this time...no this is Jesus music :) ) plug in my earbuds, open my Bible, and get soaked up in it. i feel so much peace. i get to enjoy Christ in the midst of life happening all around me. with music playing in my ears, i put myself in a bubble, yet i get to look around and see His glory ALL around. wish i could do this more often :)

thoughts in my head...

i am a bit frustrated....
i feel like energy i put into loving and investing into two dear people, is all for nothing and wasted.
they have closed themselves off from me.
i dont blame them-i cant begin to imagine what they are going through right now
but im here- wanting to serve and love them
and God has obviously placed them in my life
but how do i love when all i meet is a wall of masked emotion?
i just dont know what to do.