SO what a busy week for finals week. Work....i love it and i laugh that out of all the weeks to schedule me a ton, it would be during finals. Im super tired and haven't had must rest. but you know, it's better than i thought. I have quite a few highs and lows so far. WSM middle school (youth group) is great every week and im excited that im starting to get to know my 87th graders by name and seeing their fun and diverse personalities, what a blessing it is to be their leader. Im starting to establish friendships with my coworkers and God has opened up so many opportunities to shine Christ, im amazed that He chooses to use me, a college freshmen, to mirror Christ in the work environment. May i just say coming home to "Christmas" is great. There is usually homemade apple cider, Michael Buble playing in the background, the fire going, the lights lit up, and my family. Its like dream season for me. Im ready for a break break in Washington though. I miss everyone up there- my grandma especially. After spring break i feel like me and her hit a new level of grandma-granddaughter relationship. like i want to hang out with her and soak in a much of her cute humor as much as possible.
Now for my lows....with this i feel like i don't want to stop at my lows but find good in it.
When it comes down to it, im not bummed staying here in fresno at all, im bummed with the people who were in and out of life in a matter of months. two of my close friends are in a different state or in a program in the mountains, so i dont hear from them often and the people who stayed in fresno as well....well we aren't friends anymore. some of them came home for the holidays and are meeting up with those who stayed here (all except me). although i know this is the place where God is having me, its sad to see that my old friends are all still besties and wanting to hang out. i lived so much life with them last year and it was gone before i knew it....meaning that i hung onto them and didnt allow for God. This season has shown me that i NEED him to help me not stay in a state of anger, bitterness, or hurt. In Christ alone. do i believe that?
BUT the people he has placed in my life are AMAZING!
Lets start with my sister-julianne. She has been through quite a lot this year and has GROWN so much in who she is in Christ. The little emotion she once showed is now filled with funny, light hearted sarcasm and caringness. She is looking above herself and constantly loving me when i don't deserve it. I love hanging out with her and we have created so many memories this year. IM THANKFUL to be here this year because we have developed such a strong relationship. Even how we resolve conflict has changed and i can see how loyal she is. I have myself a sister who is so rare and am lucky to have her this close to me. The people who hurt her are missing out on her joy and compassion. (Thats just my protective sister side coming out)
We had a couple move into our guest bedroom, they have been here for almost 2 months, and they have blown my mind. The love they have for each other and us is such a gift! PJ-well he can just make me laugh about anything and we even have a couple inside joke. Sheri- man she is one of the most genuine and incredibly loving people i know. She is such a servant and listens to my ridiculous dramatic stories. IM THANKFUL to be here this year because they have blessed me in so many way and challenged me in my walk with Christ by how they love each other and serve Him daily.
Melody- she used to live with us and we learned to love each other but our relationship didn't take off until last year. She started invest into my life and we started to see that we could relate to a lot of things. I love our time together- if its watching Bones or sitting next to each other in church. IM THANKFUL to be here this year because im friends with a determined and sweet gem.
Kim-im interning under her this year and we have met up a few times at panera. spending time with her is def. a top highlight for me this year. I would easily consider her a mentor and a gift to me this season. Her lifestyle challenges me to continue to seek Christ and invest into people who are hard to love. She is so encouraging. IM THANKFUL to be here this year because she didn't have to invest into my life and yet she loves on me in the midst of my processing.
Sean- im not quite sure how to explain how friendship. it is built on a foundation of health i would say. he seeks Christ and so automatically our friendship is not superficial. we both have an understanding that guys and girls are not meant to be bffs for life but i truly believe that God has allowed for us to be close friends in this season of life. i know that it will not stay this close but am completely content knowing that. our friendship is based on growing and challenging each other for Christ. he has made me a better person in this year and i have seen now how a guy can treat a girl with Christs love and not with a sin intent. Most guys would not want to be close friends with a girl they werent attracted to but he is. IM THANKFUL for his friendship to me and how much he has loved on my family and me.
ashley-my future roommate. she is loyal. she is in love with Christ. she is a good solid friend. im excited to meet her next year and continue growing together.
i need to keep perspective, cause i have really been blessed.
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