there were many ups and downs today. my heart is heavy yet so thankful. tomorrow will be a good day (Thanksgiving) but today....man. Everything piled up on my again. My strength was all me and i am now running to God wondering whats wrong...oh right because i am human and my energy will not get me very far. I feel so alone again. Where is my identity right now? Im in a season without strong female friends. I got to sit down and process what has been going on in my heart- it was so good to share with someone who actually cares and i walked away feeling room to breath finally. but it seems the moment i breath something comes up. i walked away from another conversation feeling confused, icky, and so drained. "God i am tired. I am tired of going to Bible school because now i dont even open the word up just for fun. I am tired of no friends. I am tired of seeing my old friends move on. im tired."
remember ashlyn....God is the God of JUST ENOUGH.
He has blessed me with the best family ever. He has blessed me with a car. He has blessed me with a great job. He has blessed me with fog, beautiful trees, and the ability to relax. He has blessed me with the opportunity to serve and love on Jr. Highers. I am so blessed. My focus should be this.
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