guarding my heart- guess i didn't know

i keep getting hurt. and its on me. i sit back looking at other girls who don't guard their heart and end up getting hurt by a boy. i chuckle thinking they could be smarter and yet here i am in the midst of the same thing but just in a different context. the danger about becoming friends with a guy is the possibility of you or the guy getting lead on by accident. its inevitable that one or both will start having feelings for each other. guys and girls are not meant to be good friends without the end result being marriage. God placed attraction in all of us. i have grown up being friends with a lot of boys and the way i work is to build deep relationships. deep relationship are great- but only with girls and if im planning on marrying that boy. deep relationships with boys that are just friends start a string of mistakes. emotional attachments. man those are super dangerous. i figured if i cut out the physical part of a relationships i would be fine but i now see that i lean on the emotional side of things and get so wrapped up i walk away hurt. within high school there have been a total of 8 boys that i became practically best friends with and the cycle i seemed to go on was -hang out a ton (mostly in a large group), text, talk, live life together you know, and then i start to see after a while an attraction. now i have never fallen for these boys because of looks (like they were cute) but because i was friends with them first i fell for who they were.in the end they usually didn't see me like that, there were red flags on dating them or because of their actions they accidentally lead me on because of my emotions. ashlyn why did it take so long to figure out you have a major heartbreak issue going on? i feel like everyone has a childhood sweetheart and whether or not a friendship continues there will always be that special spot in your heart for them. i had one of those. and subconsciously any words he said i held onto and any kind action he showed me i took as more than friends. was there ever a conversation about it? no. i have been told numerous times not to assume the boy likes you (even is EVERYONE is telling you so) unless it comes from his mouth. im seeing i assume and now because im an extremist, all i want to do now is completely block guys out of my life. its my fault this happens and i know nothing else...