my kiss...

I think i am going to just officially state this in my blog, to make it official haha.

I am saving my first kiss.

For many people who know me, this is a fact they have known for a long while. yes, i am basically being a nun, but with pretty awesome reasons i would say. Watch, im probably a naturally good kisser and am just super sweet to save it for one lucky man....ok not really. I could care less honestly haha. Anyway...i want to be able to tell my future husband that i waited for him and i am giving him the whole package. (you are welcome future husband... :D ) 

lets pause fore a moment. if making out with every boy that i went out with glorified God and was selfless, then i would make out all day long. believe me! But in reality...kissing is something special and not something that should be tossed around. after being in one relationship, i can safely say i don't think its impossible to save it for the right time. although it's not always easy, it is doable.  

so the right time....

which is when....?

As i previously mentioned, i said, "I am saving my first kiss." About a year ago, i would have added "...till my wedding day." at the end. But that has changed. say what??? Ashlyn, you are going back on your promise?! Shame on you! 

Uh well kinda...and no i didn't change it because i dated a boy. I started thinking about it and at the end of the day my main reason i chose to save my first kiss is to glorify and respect my future boyfriend who may or may not become my husband. 

Sure saving my first kiss for my wedding day would go above and beyond (and be super nun-like haha)....but i started to be motivated by "i will prove everyone who thinks i can't do it, wrong" thoughts. which is pretty lame. i am competitive and like to prove people wrong who don't believe in me...but relationships aren't card games.  So i am keeping it simple now.

I am saving my first kiss.

for when? i don't know.

but all i know is i will probably kiss my man before my wedding day....probably, hopefully. actually, i am not worried really about the "when" because i think i will be more focused on how i can love and serve and build him up...that's just how i am i guess. i really can't wait to kiss, but i will still wait.

I want to make sure any relationship i am in, is centered on Christ and if my man falls in love with who i am, then the kiss will be a fun bonus (of course this kiss will be happening later on, not in like the first month of dating or when we first say "i love you"...i guess when we both want to spend the rest of our lives together) 

so that is all...just wanted to give and update on my 19yr old unkissed self.